Ryan's other song "zac's carnival" about his rapist.

Song Title: "Zac's Carnival"

Verse 1

Welcome to Zac's Carnival, step right up and see,  

The show of broken promises and shattered dignity.  

He’s the ringleader of nightmares, the master of disguise,  

A clown of chaos with a twisted gleam in his eyes.

Pre-Chorus

He spun the wheel of sorrow, and I drew the short straw,  

A carousel of darkness, where I’m lost in the raw.  

Twirling in a funhouse where the mirrors distort,  

A puppet on a string in his cruel little court.

Chorus 

Oh, Zac, you’re a magician, with a sleight of hand so mean,  

Turning all my nightmares into a grotesque dream.  

In this carnival of horror, you’re the headliner, the star,  

But I’m the one left bleeding from the battles that you marred.

Verse 2 

He sold me cotton candy, wrapped in razor wire,  

A carousel of pain, spinning in the mire.  

The strongman’s tent is empty, no one’s left to cheer,  

Just echoes of his laughter that I still hear.

Pre-Chorus  

He pulled the tricks with shadows, made me question the light,  

A masquerade of anguish in the dead of night.  

The high striker’s bell rang, but the prize was my shame,  

A carnival of scars and a broken name.

Chorus  

Oh, Zac, you’re a magician, with a sleight of hand so mean,  

Turning all my nightmares into a grotesque dream.  

In this carnival of horror, you’re the headliner, the star,  

But I’m the one left bleeding from the battles that you marred.

Bridge  

I’m breaking free from your circus, tearing down your tent,  

Taking back my courage from the torment you sent.  

The tickets are now worthless, the rides have all been shut,  

I’m reclaiming my heart, turning off the lights of your gut.

Chorus  

Oh, Zac, you’re a magician, with a sleight of hand so mean,  

Turning all my nightmares into a grotesque dream.  

In this carnival of horror, you’re the headliner, the star,  

But I’m the one left bleeding from the battles that you marred.

Outro 

Welcome to my own show now, where the healing starts to bloom,  

No more clowns or shadows, just the light in my room.  

I’m dancing in the open, leaving the dark behind,  

In a life that I’m rebuilding, peace is what I’ll find.

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In this song, Ryan uses the metaphor of a carnival to express his experiences with Zac. The carnival represents the confusion and pain caused by Zac's actions, while the song ultimately reflects Ryan's journey toward reclaiming his life and finding peace. The blend of dark humor and poignant reflection helps Ryan process his trauma in a way that allows for healing and empowerment.